i'm caught in a dream & i can't get out i'm caught in a dream & i'm not strong enough to let you go ... & i've tried everything" |
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Friday, May. 19, 2006 @ 11:40 pm It's been a very strange week for me, a very strange week to cap off the past few weeks of ancient memory hell that's been going on. Needless to say I'm just going with the flow. Trying not to feel as if I should watch my back. Wondering what I'm going to do when my best friend moves to Oregon & I'm on my own. Thinking that some things better left unspoken are now going to be said aloud & not knowing how I'm going to deal with being looked at "differently" by the majority of my large, communal family now that the cat is out of the bag. I sealed that bag up with duct tape & Elmer's glue when I was 12 years old & don't like thinking about the things that are going to explode out of it. Why can't we leave well enough alone? Beck is Wednesday ... the tickets that were lost have been found & I'm looking forward again to a night of losing my Self in someone else's reality. Why does he have to be a Scientologist? Guess no one's perfect after all, but I love his music. :blowing my speakers: Ryan Adams ~ Elizabeth, You Were Born to Play That Part
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