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Saturday, Jul. 14, 2007 @ 11:00 am Hello. Feels foreign, this too familiar box, this same bare font. Do-do-do ... what do I even hope to accomplish here? What do I wish to say? Everything, but I'm doubting it will come out in a form comprehensible to anyone (including myself). Life is life is life is life & I am I am I am I. All about me-me-me anyhow isn't it? I'm blocked ... mentally, spiritually, financially ... blocked. To paraphrase Rilo Kiley, I've got all this GOOD that won't come out. All this swirling & dancing & singing & creation trapped inside & am having a bugger of a time making it show itself. Complete soul constipation if you will. I joined Weight Watchers & have so far lost 10.5 lbs & gained 4 back (had 5 days off in a row & sat & read & snacked a bit too often). So 6.5 lbs down ... many more to go. I try to imagine sticks of butter, to get a mental image of the weight. I'm 26 sticks of butter lighter than I was a month ago. That's a lot of butter. I bought a new car. Brand new. Had to wait for her to arrive, as she was on a boat in the middle of the ocean between America & Japan when I purchased her. I named her Yoko. She's a Honda Fit, silver. Not sure I should have, the payments are taking some getting used to. I get to go visit my Jenny next month though & I'd have had to rent a car otherwise. It was time. I shall miss that extra $500 a month though. She's very fun to drive. I take the long way home often. Driving Slooooooooooooow, windows down ... breezy excellence & smiling for actual reasons instead of just to forcibly remind myself that I remember how. Summer is hot this year, or maybe I had gotten too used to the rain. Harry Potter is only a week away & we've already got over 500 on reserve (which is a big lot for our tiny store in our little town). Should be a fun night, I worked it two years ago & painted faces & the kids were a blast. My favorite co-worker is leaving. It is a serious bummer. I am hopeful that we will find a decent replacement for him, as he is a keyholder & our only non-keyholding associate just doesn't have the availability or the ... I don't know which word I'm looking for, but we're hesitant to give it to him. Rad-Boy got a better job. Started Thursday, it's only two days a week for now. Still working at the TV station, but maybe this one will work into full-time because he really seems to like it & it's about time he got a chance at a job that pays him what he deserves & he enjoys. I feel more than stale. Money is constantly on my mind lately. I despise worrying about money. It is my least favorite thing ever. Next, of course, to potato bugs. Have been reading a lot on the Slow Food Movement lately. Have been reading a lot lately period. Have to jump in the shower now & ready myself for work. :blowing my speakers: Gruff Rhys ~ Candylion
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