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Monday, Feb. 19, 2007 @ 7:22 am In a much overdue attempt to simplify my life I have quit the part-time job. Stepping down from my Fat-Girl-Panty-Pimper position to pursue the adventures of having an actual life outside of work once again. Daring. Shocking. It's about fucking time. Something just clicked & I thought, "wow... what in tarnation are you DOING poppy lynn?" So I gave notice upon picking up my paycheck & am sad to say that Suki seemed a bit miffed. As if finding a replacement for the whole 8 hours I've been working weekly for the past couple of months is going to be quite the task. I think she was being a tad melodramatic, seeing how there are a few employees that would gobble up those extra hours no problem. I'm making more money at the bookstore. End of story. I am bringing in 500 bucks more a month than I was at the Beauty Supply, for the same 40 hours. Cutting out the part-time will free me up some time & well, lately all I want is time. For me, my dog, my house, the cat, my family, sanity, feet, etc... Time to sit on my porch & read a book or ten. To pick up my dusty guit-fiddles & strum some tunes & hum along & feel like Poppy again. I want to paint my house & turn it into a home. Want to go up to Oregon & spend time with my heterosexual-life-partner. Take James to Fort Bragg & walk along the shore for miles. Want to be me. We all know I've been in hiding from it. All the bitterness in my heart that's built up over the past few years. I piled work on top of it. Buried it under so much work that I think & feel like an empty, rubberized version of myself by the end of each day. Going through the motions. I may not even blink if 8 hours are given to our part-timers & I have to have three days off a week instead of two. There might be jig-dancing & belly-laughing actually. I'll learn to be a tad more frugal with my purchases & maybe I'll enjoy them more because of it. Other newsish ... hrmmmm. I'll have a new neice in about three weeks, Cedar's girlfriend is expecting, her name will be / is Sequoya Rose. I can't wait to meet her. Serenity, who's already 4... eesh, is so excited about being a big sister. Reading EVERYTHING. White Teeth from Zadie Smith is a delicious one. Almost finished with it now. Her characters are so richly defined that it's hard to believe I don't know them in real life. Not to mention that there's a Poppy & an Irie & it just makes me smile. :blowing my speakers: Counting Crows ~ High Life
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