You ever decide that waiting for the impossible isn't worth the time?

The sleepless nights & drunken sobs & aching heart & wait... wait... waiting that drives you mad... mad... mad. The giving up & then waiting some more anyway & knowing it will never make any difference ... but waiting some more on top of it.

I'm a very patient person.

I can't handle this though. Not at all.

I want an IHOP cinna-stack.

Right now.

Damn commercials.

I don't have to work all weekend.

alllllllll weeeeeekennnnnnd.

off.

I bought new pillows for my bed today & a new mattress cover/cushy thing & can't wait to get my drunk on & crawl on in there with my freshly shaved legs.

All clean sheets & blankets & they smell of cedarwood & vanilla & mmmmm.

My favorite thing, well ... one of em.

Been having a Ryan Adams-fest in my Ipod lately. Just pick his name & click "all" & let her rip & drive around in the snow with my windows down & sing at the top of my lungs, using my voice as a fist which I shake at the sky in a vengeful manner.

Shaking fists at Gods you don't believe in may signal some sort of inner crisis. Maybe I'm shaking them at the stars instead.

grrrr, stars... so many wasted wishes.

Want to go out, but know that I'll get holy loaded & driving home in the snow while hopped up on Guinness & Jager isn't the way I should be spending my Friday night.

Could sit here with Newcastle & Jager instead, but ... I'm in need of human contact ... interaction ... socialization & a competitive game of darts.

It's the "anywhere but here" syndrome that I get from time to time & I could walk ten paces up the road & be appeased, but The Pub sounds like more fun.

My mind is pacing.

Back & forth along its own strange paths, bouncing from one thought to another ... trying to keep me occupied so I won't go out driving.

Stay home & get drunk?

Go out & stay sober?

tough call.

I still want an effing cinna-stack, but am afraid they'll be less rad than they sound.

:blowing my speakers: Ryan Adams ~ To Be The One
:feeding my head: Christopher Moore ~ Bloodsucking Fiends
:rotting my brain: Good Eats

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